Just A Few Thoughts...

I went to TN this past wkend to see one of my best friends from high school get married. She looked beautiful and her husband seems like a very nice man. (Oddly enough, I still haven't officially met him!) They had such a sweet wedding, and her dress that her aunt made was absolutely beautiful! I am sooo happy for my sweet friend Sara STANTON!! and her husband Micah! I love you and I wish you both the best!


Tonight I hung out with my new friend, Raychel, who works at the Starbucks in my store. She is just plain awesome! She is here in Augusta for a year, at least, while her husband is overseas in Korea. I don't know how she or any of the other military wives do that. I'm not married so I cannot even begin to understand, but I can only imagine what it would be like to be without my husband for a whole year. Anyways, she and I went to dinner tonight and I got to know her a little better. She is just awesome!! We are very much alike and yet very different and I think she is going to end up being a good friend!

So, I got two different phone calls today from two different coworkers who called to tell me about one issue. Another coworker went upstairs and complained on me because I offended her yesterday. What did mean old Shea do?? I asked her if she and her STAPH infection were still contagious. Well, I think I have a right to ask and a right to know because this is my health here and I do not want a freaking staph infection. If that offends you, tough. If I choose to bathe myself in hand sanitizer after touching something you have been touching, I am going to do it, and if that offends you, tough. If I choose to come behind you and do a lysol wipedown of the surfaces you have been touching, I will, and if that offends you, tough. Trying to keep myself clean and healthy is not a matter of your comfort. If that offends you, tough.

I'm having a lazy summer and I am LOVING it.

Those are all my thoughts for now. Stay tuned....

Revolver Globe!

After MUCH frustration of trying to get it onto my blog, I FINALLY I have the revolver globe to the left of my posts. Check it out!! See yourself??

Allow me to be a little bit selfish....

Another friend is engaged, which means, this time next year, another friend will be married. I'm very happy for my friend. She is such a wonderful person and one of my best friends, and the man she is going to marry seems like a really nice guy. I knew when I started seeing the phrase "I love you" appearing on his Facebook wall that the engagement would be soon. What I didn't know was how I was going to feel about that. Of course, I'm sooo excited for her. She's getting married!! But I'm not so excited for myself. She will be married this time next year, and I am certain to be still unmarried, still unengaged, and still undating. You see, it's all very discouraging. I am truly beginning to wonder what is wrong with me that I not only don't have a boyfriend, but I don't even have any prospects. I feel like screaming at God right now asking Him why He has forgotten about me. Part of me knows that God has amazing things in store for me, but is being single FOREVER really necessary????

Things I Could Not Live Without.....

iPod
Cell phone
Camera
My "Dianky"
Chapstick
Laptop
Car
Sweet tea!
Toothbrush/paste

There are so many more! It's easy for me to say that I couldn't live without my listening device, or my link to the outside world, but notice I haven't listed anything that I truly could not live without: clean drinking water, food, roof over my head (not absolutely essential, but still). There are people all over the world who do without those essentials on a daily basis. If there is a question about where my next meal will come from, it isn't about how I am going to get it, it's about where do I want to get it. I don't scavenger trash cans and dumpsters for food and water or build a shack with cardboard boxes. I don't have to walk the streets day and night because I have nowhere to go and nowhere to be. I don't spend holidays alone because I don't have friends and family and it doesn't occur to me NOT to make a Christmas list. All of these things just are for me. I want them and there they are. Food is in the fridge, sweet tea is half price at Sonic between 2-4, and my iPod not being charged is a crisis. I have gas in my car and if I want to go somewhere, I go. This isn't a pedastal and I'm not preaching. I was just thinking about how much I love my stuff, and then it occurred to me that not only do majority of the people in this world not have these things, they have so much LESS. And the real kicker is, you don't have to go to a third-world country to see people in need. These people easily live in the house down the street, or sleep under the bridge on 15th St. So the next time I am complaining to myself that I would like a new Vera Bradley or a new outfit, perhaps I should just remind myself of the little girl sitting in class on Friday thinking about the food she won't get at home over the weekend.

I Like Me...

I like myself and the person I have become. I have worked very hard to learn from not only my own mistakes, but also the mistakes of others. I'm certainly not perfect, but I do have a lot of good qualities. I look back at the person I was in high school, and even going into my early 20s, and I don't really like that person. She was moody, and rude, and uncaring, and selfish. She was not a very pleasant person to be around. I like to think I have changed a lot from that girl. Since then, I have realized that I was moody and that I have the power to control that. I can choose my mood and I can choose the attitude I want to have from day to day. Nobody likes to be around somebody who is always grouchy or whose demeaner can change in a quick minute. Most people like to be around others who are nice, and who smile and have a positive attitude. That wasn't always me, but I like to think that it is now. Of course, I have my moments when I am genuinely not in a good mood, but those moments are few and far between, at least I hope. Especially when I am at work, I try to smile and be bright and cheery. A long time ago, that was a foreign concept, but now it's my usual demeaner.

There are other things too. For example, I like the fact that I'm not overly girly, but I am certainly not a tomboy either. I like to put on my makeup and look pretty, but I also like to put my hair in a ponytail and wear my Adidas pants and a tshirt. I call it my "sporty" look, even if I am NOT sporty at all!!! Of course, my diamond earrings and Pandora bracelet will be present for either dress up or dress down. I like the fact that I like to exercise, even if I am not always disciplined to do it regularly. It makes me feel good that I enjoy doing something that is beneficial to my health. I also like how BOLD I have become. I'm really not afraid of anything or anybody. Recently, I made a very bold move and did something I would have never dreamed of before. I got one good date out of the deal, and that's all, but just knowing that I went after something and a little good came from it, enables me to do something like that in the future. Not the necessary stalking part, for those of you who know what I am talking about!! Honestly, doing that was very liberating for such a conservative little girl! I'm also incredibly loyal. As long as I become loyal to you, I am pretty much that way for life. Even if for some reason we end on bad terms, I am probably going to do right by you no matter what. I've never been a backstabber, to anyone, and I certainly wouldn't do that to someone I cared about or to whom I am loyal, which are kind of one in the same. I also don't do grudges. Sure, I might not like you, and if I don't you will know it, but I will not hold something against you. I will always be cordial to you, despite not liking you, but I will not hold a grudge against you. "Bitterness is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die."

Of course, I have bad qualities too, but I kind of think that some of them make me somewhat charming and a little quirky. I am not a sympathetic person- AT ALL! I have zero sympathy for anything or anybody. If someone starts crying around me, I have to leave the room. It makes me very uncomfortable. I mean, I can feel bad for someone, and I can feel bad about something, but I don't really do sympathy. Next, I am ridiculously bossy!!! I boss my bosses around, and I kind of always have. It's not a disrespect thing, it's just a Shea thing. I am a bossy person and once people get to know me, they realize that that is just my personality. I'm not trying to be ugly or rude; I am just bossy in nature. Character flaw? I'm not sure. Something to work on, for sure, but not an overall bad quality. Oh, and I am so sarcastic it is crazy. If I didn't know any better, I would say that sarcasm is my love language. It's like I can't help myself. Most people find me funny, but there are many times when it is just plain rude. Again, something to work on but not entirely bad.

Not so fabulous day...

My day started out very well, but did not end that way. This morning I got to work and then bought a White chocolate mocha frap from starbucks. Soon after, my stomach started hurting and did not quit until around 8 pm.

Around midday, one of my coworkers approached me telling me that our interaction the night before was "unnecesary" and if I had a problem, I should have pulled her aside and spoken to her about it. Um, what? Last night I asked her what kind of cookies she was passing out (I knew they were peanut butter, which cannot be passed out bc of allergies) to which she replied that they were from the bakery, and she put her finger in my face to tell me I just needed to listen to her (while she told me, yet again, that they were from the bakery...like I didn't know that). So today, she confronts me in front of about 30 customers to tell me that last night was unnecessary and that I am on a power trip and she is my elder, and blah blah blah. I pretty much told her to go away and I was not going to talk to her. She continues to yell at me as she is walking away that the reason I told her to go away was because I knew I was wrong. Noooo, I told her to go away because she is an idiot and there is nothing she can say that could possibly enlightening. I knew I was not the only one who had had these kinds of interactions with her, b/c I had already had 2 conversations with 2 different people who work more closely with her than I do about how hateful she is and how she goes around telling people how things work. Um, she has worked there for about 3 months, meanwhile the rest of us have been there a lot longer. They're thinking of putting her in my department. Joy. Needless to say, I stopped by my boss's office on my way out to tell him about this and that, in my opinion, she was out of control and needed to be addressed. He told me I was the 5th person to come talk to him (today alone) about her and he would be addressing ALL of her issues tonight. Hmph.

Finally, I got to leave that place, not to return until Monday afternoon, and I came home, tummy ache and all, and took a shower and went to bed. I'm home alone for the night. All the doors are locked and the alarm is set. Creepy Lebanese man does not know where I live, that I know of, so no worries there. Btw, I have decided that he is trying to kidnap me and sell me into the sex trade/human trafficking. I really don't think I am just being paranoid.

I've Lost My Phone. Again.

I went to my parent's house this weekend. Thursday, my sister and I went to the outdoor mall to shop for Mother's Day/Birthday presents for my Mom, Grandmother, and Stepmother, but I had no luck. I just do not know what to get for my Stepmother. I know that she LOVES Georgia Bulldogs, but that's about it. She doesn't really carry Vera Bradley, she doesn't wear a lot of jewelry, so I just don't know. And I'm still thinking about it. My Mom and Grandma are much easier to buy for, but I still didn't find them anything. I already have my Grandma something for one or the other, (her bday is also in May) I just hope she hasn't already ordered one for herself, since she had voiced that she wanted this. Now I just need to find her something for the other holiday. Once again, I'm at a loss, but I at least have SOME ideas. My mom, while easy to buy for, is also hard to buy for- she's told me to take something back before. She doesn't wear jewelry, but she has decided that she wants this jewelry armoire, so I thought about getting her a MC gift card to put towards that, but I HATE giving gift cards. If that's what she wants, and I can give her money to pay for it, that will work. IDK, yet. Dilemma dilemma.

In other news, I've lost my phone again. At my parent's house. Hope I find it sooner than a month this time.

I'm FREEEE!!!

Top Things on My To-Do List:

Catch up on Vampire Diaries, Nikita, Fringe, One Tree Hill, Swamp People, etc
Read books on my Nook I have had for a while now
Play Harry Potter LEGO on Wii
Watch movies
Sleep

I've been in school for a year straight, and now I have A WHOLE MONTH before I have to start summer classes. I don't know what to do with myself!! It's really nice to be able to catch up on my shows without thinking about all the other things I should be doing. Very. Good. Feeling!!