VACATION!!!

So, I didn't think I was going to get to take a vacation this year- I thought it was going to have to be more like a stay-cation. However, thanks to my awesome family, I get to go to Myrtle Beach for vacation! That's actually strange because I am really not a beach person. Quite the opposite in that I would almost rather be anywhere than the beach because I do not want to be eaten by a shark and I do not like having sand in places that do not see sunlight. Honesly, I don't really even remember the last time I went to the beach. I'm thinking it was 2007 when I went to Disney with my friend, Leslie. That being said, I suddenly had a REALLY STRONG urge to go to the beach and now I get to go!!! Ahhhh..... Those are my thoughts. I simply cannot wait to spend at least one day laying on the beach in my swimsuit soaking up some much-needed, get-me-out-of-this-severly-foul-mood sunshine. Seriously, this vacation is very much needed because I have not been anywhere since April last year and work is seriously stressing me out. I don't even want to go into details about the craziness that is my supposed-to-be non-stressful, yet somehow completely stressful job. UGH!! Anyways, I realize Myrtle Beach isn't the Cayman Islands or the Caribbean or anything, but it is not Augusta, it is far away from my nightmare workplace, and it is my much needed, didn't think it would happen vacation. Works. For. Me! So, in the spirit of getting away from it all, I will be deactivating my Facebook account for at least the week I am gone, if not a whole month, minus a day or so to upload pictures.

Fifty Shades

Christian Grey does not exist.

Sadly.

Or Fortunately.

I don't know which.

Have you read Fifty Shades of Grey, Darker, or Freed? Brace yourselves. It's a whirlwind. I had heard about the book, I don't even remember where now, and I knew the content was rather dirty, to put it mildly.

Here are my thoughts:

This book is very much so like Twilight in that

• We have this young, inexperienced female character who falls in love with the insanely gorgeous, insanely rich man who falls in love with her after battling demons of his own and discovering that he can't live without her, to the point where he gives up his dark, kinky ways (almost).
• This man is insanely protective of her to the point of extreme suffocation and overbearingness and she willingly allows him to be this way, considering herself in the wrong when she "disobeys" him
• He wants to share his wealth this her, and whisk her away to all these amazing places and adorn her with lavish gifts- cars, jewelry, clothes, houses, her own business, etc

This book has a great story, despite the Twilight-y feel, if you can get past the constant "love-making"

• It got to the point where I was skipping pages at a time because these scenes are sooo numerous

So, what it boils down to is, if you look past the Twilight-inspired characters and the ridiculous amounts of bedroom activity, the story that surrounds these two characters is really very good, and I do recommend this book to others. :)

Bucket List

I'm a list person. I make a list for EVERYTHING! Shopping, packing, needing, etc. Recently, I wrote down my bucket list. You know, things I want to do one day. This one is my activity bucket list. I want to go parasailing, swim with dolphins, ride in a hot air balloon, go zip-lining, hang gliding, kayaking, scuba diving, etc, and I am really eager to get started knocking these things off my list. But, I don't want to do them alone and for most of them, I don't live near any of them, like parasailing. So, I'm going to have to do some planning so that I can mark them off the list. I'm tired of being boring and not having these kinds of experiences under my belt.  Who wants to join me?

Related to this same topic, I have a places bucket list. I want to travel the world and see everything. I want to go to London and see where Anne Boleyn was imprisoned before her beheading, or castles in Ireland, or the Parthenon in Greece. I want to see historical places and be able to say "I've been there." Not just around the world, but in the continental US as well. I want to visit New York, cruise to Alaska, see the Grand Canyon. I want to see it all, and the idea that I would live my life and never accomplish this goal is devastating to me.

So, here is my plan. When I graduate, the idea is that I would find a good job, one that supports me and allows me to pay my bills, and I want to live frugally so that I can pay off my student loans in a timely manner. That way, I can continue to live frugally, but instead be able to devote my money to my travels and adventures. Of course, this is assuming that I am going to be single for that long. Probably.

Gah, this is so silly, but one of my biggest fears in life is that I won't be able to go and see and do everything I want to. I want to be adventurous and cultured and well-travelled. And I am determined to make that happen.

Everything Now and Everything Coming Up

I checked my grades today and I got a B in the Public Relations Theory class that I was only supposed to get a C in in order to pass the class. AND I GOT A B!!!!!! That was such a great moment when I checked my grades, which is something I never do, and I saw that B. Great Moment!

I worked at one of our ghetto stores today doing Accounting and made the store manager mad when I told her I was told I had the option to leave her store when I got done and go back to my store. She did not like hearing that and I ended up staying all day. That was fine, but tomorrow I was supposed to run my own store's bake sale, meaning I would have to leave this other store early. I told the manager and she made a phone call and our bake sale got canceled. Awesome, right? Especially since I baked four cakes already. Not a happy girl right now. I'll get over it; no choice.

Coming up, Mother's Day is in two days. My sister and I got my mom an awesome present, but I don't know if she's going to like it. According to my sister, mom has been wanting one so maybe we will hit a home run. Maybe. Anyways, I am working on Mother's Day but I am going to see my Madre on Tuesday and we are spending the week together. My dad will be out of town so this will be a mom-and-the-kids week. Good times!

Next on the list, my almost little brother is graduating next Saturday and I don't know what to get him for graduation. I thought I knew, but he has decided to postpone going to school and now I don't know what to get him. Boys are so hard to buy for! I was going for practical when he was planning to go away to school, but now I don't know. Although, now that he doesn't need practical things, I can get him something fun which he would appreciate more. Any ideas would be appreciated.

I have the summer off from school, but I REALLY wish I was taking classes this summer. I need them in order to graduate next spring, but it didn't work out. So very disappointing.

Trainer Sadness

My night just got ruined because my trainer just told me this will be the last month for him to train me. I need him! I don't push myself enough. Or at all. I don't have the self-motivation to do this for myself. I don't know what I am doing! I have no idea how to get myself into shape. He does! He has been a huge help and I really appreciate all his help. Idk. I guess I wouldn't feel so bad if he would give me a reason. If that reason has to do with me, I'm going to be devastated. Whereas, if it's because of some personal reason on his part, then I can understand that. I'm just devastated regardless. I really need his help and now I feel like I will NEVER get to where I want to be.

I also really liked working out with him. Don't misunderstand, I worked out with him because he could help me, but I also liked working out with HIM. We have just now gotten to where we can actually get along and I really enjoy our time working out together. Sigh. I'm just very upset.

I have bad luck. No shock there.

I have the worst luck with men. I have dated two this year, which is a lot for me, and my luck just doesn't seem to exist. I know it's not about luck. It's about finding the one God has for me. I am just tired of kissing frogs. I am tired of dating people who are not the one for me. I would rather not date at all! Ugh, it's so frustrating. It's all very simple to me. Either you like me or you don't. Either you want to be with me or you don't. It's. Very. Simple. If you don't like me and don't want to be with me, say so. That's simple too. I would rather you decide that you don't like me and want virtually nothing to do with me than be a coward and string me along because that's whats easier for you, when really, that's not easy for anybody. Be a big boy. Tell the truth. Tell me what's up. I am a big girl and I can take it. Don't make me feel like there is something wrong with me or I have done something wrong when neither of those is the case. Nobody has done anything wrong- we just aren't meant to be! Again, simple, simple, simple!

I Don't Understand Men

I think my title pretty much sums it all up.

In other news, I am catching up on my Army Wives seasons, I have recently gotten into The Client List, and my room desperately needs to be cleaned. You know, I really don't mind cleaning once I get started, but getting started is the hard part. There are so many things I would rather be doing- watching tv, staring at FB, listening to my iPod, reading a book. But you know what else? There has never been a better motivator for cleaning than having studying that needs to be done. When I have homework to do or a test to study for, I am suddenly in the mood for some serious cleaning. I mean, lift the furniture, clean out the gutters serious deep cleaning. I guess that's the only thing I hate worse than cleaning. I have never been a studious student. I don't know how to study and it shows. I get my work done and I get decent grades, but my grades aren't what they could be if I put forth more effort. I just don't want to. Anyways, the semester is almost over. My college days are almost over. My study days are almost over. This blog post is officially over.