I like myself and the person I have become. I have worked very hard to learn from not only my own mistakes, but also the mistakes of others. I'm certainly not perfect, but I do have a lot of good qualities. I look back at the person I was in high school, and even going into my early 20s, and I don't really like that person. She was moody, and rude, and uncaring, and selfish. She was not a very pleasant person to be around. I like to think I have changed a lot from that girl. Since then, I have realized that I was moody and that I have the power to control that. I can choose my mood and I can choose the attitude I want to have from day to day. Nobody likes to be around somebody who is always grouchy or whose demeaner can change in a quick minute. Most people like to be around others who are nice, and who smile and have a positive attitude. That wasn't always me, but I like to think that it is now. Of course, I have my moments when I am genuinely not in a good mood, but those moments are few and far between, at least I hope. Especially when I am at work, I try to smile and be bright and cheery. A long time ago, that was a foreign concept, but now it's my usual demeaner.
There are other things too. For example, I like the fact that I'm not overly girly, but I am certainly not a tomboy either. I like to put on my makeup and look pretty, but I also like to put my hair in a ponytail and wear my Adidas pants and a tshirt. I call it my "sporty" look, even if I am NOT sporty at all!!! Of course, my diamond earrings and Pandora bracelet will be present for either dress up or dress down. I like the fact that I like to exercise, even if I am not always disciplined to do it regularly. It makes me feel good that I enjoy doing something that is beneficial to my health. I also like how BOLD I have become. I'm really not afraid of anything or anybody. Recently, I made a very bold move and did something I would have never dreamed of before. I got one good date out of the deal, and that's all, but just knowing that I went after something and a little good came from it, enables me to do something like that in the future. Not the necessary stalking part, for those of you who know what I am talking about!! Honestly, doing that was very liberating for such a conservative little girl! I'm also incredibly loyal. As long as I become loyal to you, I am pretty much that way for life. Even if for some reason we end on bad terms, I am probably going to do right by you no matter what. I've never been a backstabber, to anyone, and I certainly wouldn't do that to someone I cared about or to whom I am loyal, which are kind of one in the same. I also don't do grudges. Sure, I might not like you, and if I don't you will know it, but I will not hold something against you. I will always be cordial to you, despite not liking you, but I will not hold a grudge against you. "Bitterness is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die."
Of course, I have bad qualities too, but I kind of think that some of them make me somewhat charming and a little quirky. I am not a sympathetic person- AT ALL! I have zero sympathy for anything or anybody. If someone starts crying around me, I have to leave the room. It makes me very uncomfortable. I mean, I can feel bad for someone, and I can feel bad about something, but I don't really do sympathy. Next, I am ridiculously bossy!!! I boss my bosses around, and I kind of always have. It's not a disrespect thing, it's just a Shea thing. I am a bossy person and once people get to know me, they realize that that is just my personality. I'm not trying to be ugly or rude; I am just bossy in nature. Character flaw? I'm not sure. Something to work on, for sure, but not an overall bad quality. Oh, and I am so sarcastic it is crazy. If I didn't know any better, I would say that sarcasm is my love language. It's like I can't help myself. Most people find me funny, but there are many times when it is just plain rude. Again, something to work on but not entirely bad.
There are other things too. For example, I like the fact that I'm not overly girly, but I am certainly not a tomboy either. I like to put on my makeup and look pretty, but I also like to put my hair in a ponytail and wear my Adidas pants and a tshirt. I call it my "sporty" look, even if I am NOT sporty at all!!! Of course, my diamond earrings and Pandora bracelet will be present for either dress up or dress down. I like the fact that I like to exercise, even if I am not always disciplined to do it regularly. It makes me feel good that I enjoy doing something that is beneficial to my health. I also like how BOLD I have become. I'm really not afraid of anything or anybody. Recently, I made a very bold move and did something I would have never dreamed of before. I got one good date out of the deal, and that's all, but just knowing that I went after something and a little good came from it, enables me to do something like that in the future. Not the necessary stalking part, for those of you who know what I am talking about!! Honestly, doing that was very liberating for such a conservative little girl! I'm also incredibly loyal. As long as I become loyal to you, I am pretty much that way for life. Even if for some reason we end on bad terms, I am probably going to do right by you no matter what. I've never been a backstabber, to anyone, and I certainly wouldn't do that to someone I cared about or to whom I am loyal, which are kind of one in the same. I also don't do grudges. Sure, I might not like you, and if I don't you will know it, but I will not hold something against you. I will always be cordial to you, despite not liking you, but I will not hold a grudge against you. "Bitterness is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die."
Of course, I have bad qualities too, but I kind of think that some of them make me somewhat charming and a little quirky. I am not a sympathetic person- AT ALL! I have zero sympathy for anything or anybody. If someone starts crying around me, I have to leave the room. It makes me very uncomfortable. I mean, I can feel bad for someone, and I can feel bad about something, but I don't really do sympathy. Next, I am ridiculously bossy!!! I boss my bosses around, and I kind of always have. It's not a disrespect thing, it's just a Shea thing. I am a bossy person and once people get to know me, they realize that that is just my personality. I'm not trying to be ugly or rude; I am just bossy in nature. Character flaw? I'm not sure. Something to work on, for sure, but not an overall bad quality. Oh, and I am so sarcastic it is crazy. If I didn't know any better, I would say that sarcasm is my love language. It's like I can't help myself. Most people find me funny, but there are many times when it is just plain rude. Again, something to work on but not entirely bad.
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